Abstrack

November 14.2024

I’'m already very tired in this world, I don't know how it is, even though I'm not alone and I'm really not alone, I have everything my parents always give the best for me, but I don't know why I'm starting to get so tired of everything ,whether it's about my studies, my life, or whatever, I don't know whether this is a symptom or a personality that appears within myself, I can't even think clearly about what will happen next

Why am i being like this..?

I feel like I am a monster that will threaten everything,Why does everyone leave me at a time like this? Don't I have the right to be happy with what I should get?

I can't even live alone, but why is just saying that so hard for me? Why can I teach my students to be brave but I myself as the teacher cannot do that?I'm just a girl who has lots of dreams, but why is this so hard to express?

Am I really that cheerful of a child in front of my friends? 

Why can I make them happy, but I'm reluctant to make myself happy?

Why? Why? Why? Why? why do I ask too many questions about unimportant things??

Lord , Have I gone too far from you? so you want me to ask and beg you again for answers to all my questions?

Why did my once very beautiful life become like a bouquet of death flowers for myself? why can't I enjoy everything that is given, but I can't enjoy what I should enjoy?

My life is too hard, but my parents have full expectations for me, I have to keep living to achieve what they want. This promise to me is not too difficult to carry out, I just need to keep thinking positively about everything.

I am enough for myself, I am good, and I can control my emotions, I don't want everything I do to make everyone hate me, and I hope that the future will be better